hello, mcfly.

seriously, i don't know why i worry. God always provides! silly kelsey. i never before noticed how much i do it. as if anything is outside of God's control. even if i don't get to know why certain things happen, God does! that should be enough comfort. to worry is such a heavy thing. essentially, i'm distrusting the infinite Creator and His wisdom every time, thinking perhaps He's not big enough to handle whatever it is. psh. what a load.

"When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, the moon and the stars, which You have set in place, what is man that You are mindful of him, the son of man that You care for him?"

i was in borders last night with my new friends, and i saw a very big book about the universe. i was completely enthralled with it (which isn't out of the ordinary; i find the universe fascinating), flipping through every page in utter awe. i cannot wrap my head around the idea of all of that space, let alone the God that created it. fact- did you know that our sun is a star, and therefore every star in the vastness of space could very well have its own solar system like ours? and God chose to send His Son to die and to save the microscopic scum of people on one infinitesimally small planet called earth! amazing. mind-blowing. God, You blow my mind.

that God has everything under control! there is NO reason for me to worry. so stop it, kelsey. have a little faith. have a little trust.

time and space and grace and your face.

well, friends, i'm in california right now. hello, reality! wednesday was the surreallest (<--word? don't care) day of my life. i packed my belongings, put them in the truck, and said goodbye to my dear dog. it's weird, let me tell you! no amount of preparation and forethought can ready you for the sight of a bare bedroom and plans for a new life coming true. i mean, think of it. that was my last night at home. how strange.
i am so thrilled to explore my future! i've got sooo much adventure waiting for me at this new school with new friends to meet, new knowledge to discover, and independence to try out. i praise God because He's given me and people i trust the certainty i've waited for. all systems go. this is the surest i've ever been, and though it's hard, i wouldn't pass it up for anything. well, maybe an all-expense-paid trip to europe :) .
my dear friends, i am sorry if i have failed you. i'm learning a lot about friendship and endurance and how i suck at both. i wish in the past that i'd been a better friend, and i feel like i've all but abandoned some people i truly cared about. but i can promise that no matter how frequently or deeply i or other people hurt you, Jesus will never fail you.
i am going to miss seeing all of your lovely faces often. (i do have skype, but nothing replaces face-to-face, genuine and deep conversations.)
don't be a stranger! seriously! may the Lord bless you and keep you.
see you at christmastime.