spring term is kicking my butt.

kay. i'm lacking perseverance. i feel the weight of the work i have yet to do before this term ends (in 1.5 weeks.....!!!!), but i am too afraid of it to get near it. can't tell you how much wonderful hanging-out i've been doing these past days, totally loving the time spent there, but with a double motivation - 1: seeing my dear friends, old and new; 2: avoiding the very daunting task of finishing what i've begun. rather ignoring it in hopes it will go away.

...it is not working.

here is a list of things i am jumping-out-of-my-skin-excited to do when spring term bites the dust:

1. house-sit (try out independence for 2.5 weeks)
- sit in a quiet house alone
- have ample space to think
- try out cooking for myself
- have company over like a grown-up
2. finish jane eyre
3. lie on the floor with my eyes closed and listen to my new bon iver album
4. go running. frequently.
5. watch my x men movies i've received in the mail
6. deep-clean my bedroom
7. intentionally and intensively plan my going-ahead plans
8. journal extensively
9. go on coffee dates and walks with the Lord
10. wake up early because i want to, not because i have to

but in the meantime, i resolve to search out the beauty in each day and not just wish them away. "this too shall pass" and all that.

be still my soul

be still my soul
the Lord is on your side
bear patiently
the cross of grief or pain
leave to your God
to order and provide
in every change
He will remain

be still my soul
your God will undertake
to guide the future
as in ages past
your hope your might
your will will nothing shake
all now mysterious
shall be bright

be still my soul
the hour is hastening on
when we shall be
forever with the Lord
when disappointment
grief, and fear are gone
sorrows forgot
love's joys restored

be still my soul

praise Him, praise Him