calling me out, calling you out

what if we were as militant about our own sin as we were about other people's?

sin is all the same in the eyes of God. all of it, no matter what it is, separates us from Him. liars, cheaters, sex offenders, murderers, thieves: all of us do not deserve God.

really, this is what it breaks down to. Jesus = LOVE.

what if we acted on what we said we believed in?

what if we really believed in what we say we believe in?

faith without works is dead.


we do not get to hoard Jesus anymore.

act like Jesus. read about Him. find out what got Him excited. study His life; His perfect, glorious life. learn what He has told you to do - it is in the Bible. share His passion. BE Jesus to this broken, hurting, longing world.

i think that if Christians were more PROactive about our faith, we would get much less flack from the world about how we REact. if people knew what Christianity was really about ((NOT religion and condemnation and rules and being exclusive)), they would see more of God and less of us.

this is it - WE are getting in the way. we are getting in God's way.

we need to repent of our self-righteousness and fear and start doing good.

i need to repent of my own self-righteousness and fear and start seeing people how my gracious and loving God sees them. i have got to get the heck out of God's way.

when is change coming?

TRUST and OBEY.

i heard another sermon today about trusting God with my future. HELLO! i feel like God's been slapping me around with this truth for a long time.

i like to say that i trust God, because it's true. i do trust God, in the sense that i know in my brains He is huge and enormous, and the embodiment of love and faithfulness, and powerful enough to make all things come together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purposes. see, i know this in my brains.

but what i feel in my heart is neglect. and i feel like garbage for saying this. again, i know in my brains this is the furthest possible thing from the truth, but this is what i am feeling. nothing i want to happen is happening or seems to have any hope of happening. my dreams are gathering dust, and my heart is all twisted up with hurt. and now i am having a little pity party on the world wide web.

i wish somebody would just tell me what i'm supposed to do.

i feel like i'm in a waiting room.

i understand that God has a plan for my life. i understand that He makes no mistakes, and that this awkward transition time is part of the plan. He is not surprised by any of this. which is a small comfort to me.

none of my blogs have happy endings. i've come to rather hate happy endings, because i feel like they are not true to life.

now i'm rambling. ramble ramble ramble.

Lord, please show me something.