square one

i feel as though i've come full circle, and now i'm back at the beginning. it's nearing the end of my first year of college, but i don't feel any different than i did last year at this time. because of finances, i have to move back home and work for a year. i have to apply to colleges (again), decide a new major (again), and i have to find jobs and earn a lot of money. it's like the twilight zone. you'd almost never know i went to California for a year. it's as if i'm back to square one. i would be totally discouraged if i didn't know God was in control, causing all these events to happen for the good of those who love Him.

but i have learned so much. God pried me from my comfort zone, stripped my dreams from me, and caused me to question everything. it was one of the hardest things i've ever done. but i've come out of it with a clearer picture of how life is out from under the protective umbrella of my parents and my home life.

i know this experience has changed my life. i'm grateful beyond words for how faithful God has been to me, and i eagerly anticipate what will happen when i go home.