california

well kids, it looks like i'm going to master's. i just got my acceptance letter today, and i am pretty excited about that.

it really is a fabulous school. i was there for a couple days, sleeping in the dorms, going to classes and meeting people, and it seemed to be exactly like camp. everyone is completely in love with Jesus, and they're really friendly and nice. it's a small Bible college, but they've got a fantastic choral program. i'll be a vocal performance major (i think), and i don't know what i'll intend upon doing when i graduate. but that's a whole other topic.

i think moving to california will be THE most stretching experience of my life. leaving everything i've ever known and moving somewhere entirely by myself will be extraordinarily hard for me. no more portland, no more familiar roads and places, and no more seeing family and dear friends. i will be a twenty-hour car ride from home in beautiful southern california.

i am terrified.

what if i never move back? what if i slowly lose contact with my dearest friends in portland? can i really change that much? am i willing to take that risk?

please pray that either i win the lottery or that large amounts of money fall from the sky so that i can go to this wonder college.

God, please give me certainty about this. i'm scared.