trust.

i've been reading in ecclesiasties because i'm writing a paper on existentialism and there are a lot of ties in that book. and i just like tying everything to the Bible. but i found a particularly interesting passage that i'd like to post.

"I have seen the burden God has laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end." - ecclesiasties 3:10-11

now, isn't that interesting? so much juice in so few words. from the beginning of time, mankind has wondered about an afterlife, doubting that this life is it. God has put that desire in our hearts, but we can't understand the scope of it at all. we cannot possibly comprehend a world outside of Time and Space, because God created those things for us to exist in. we are always wanting to know, but we can never know. our minds were not meant to understand, only to seek. to seek and to be satisfied with not knowing. how fascinating.

and then there's the part i bolded. this part holds special meaning for me right now. everything God created is made to be beautiful in its time. maybe not right now, probably not tomorrow, but eventually. i can only speak from what i know. i know that girls want so much to be special, to be sought after, to be rescued. it's consuming, even. i'm probably taking the verse far out of context, but i know God put everyone here on purpose. He breathed life into us. and maybe beautiful doesn't necessarily mean aesthetically beautiful, but beautiful on the inside, where it counts. and that sounds remarkably cheesy, but i have come to learn that only that is important, no matter what the world says.

what does the world know, anyway? stupid world.

Lord, give me confidence to be who You designed me to be, no matter what feedback or lack of feedback i recieve from the world. i know i'm here on purpose. forgive me for second-guessing Your plans. thank You that i am not an accident of biology, and that i have plenty of reason to live, if only for You. i praise You, for i am fearfully and wonderfully made.